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i dont feel so good

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 23:23:23 GMT

well i think our school is crazy let me tell you
today i went to get myself hott water for tea
and a cup because i had my own tea bag
i was chased down my the lunch lady
because i had to pay her 3 cents for the cup
not the water
not the tea
but for the plastic cup
well see i didnt have any money on me
so mike vacanti got into an arguement with the lunch lady
and he payed my three cents

WOW PHS WOW

my day was OK nothing speacial
school went on as it does usually
came home
didnt have a key
my sister wasnt home
so where do i go
my second home alonas house
we watched alice in wonderland
and some authur ....our speacial PBS time
i took a nap because i was so tired
then she kicked me out

i came home
i was really tired
i made tea
because my throght hurts

my sister is sick
stephanie is sick
she might have mono
with means my sister might have mono
which means i mihgt have mono!

YAY

well two days

tilll

friday friday friday beer beer boys ass

((me and alonas little song for mcq))

yes mam

well im really excited but yet i dont have any tickets for sure
wish me luck.

much love♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i love 88 cent ksassetttt tapes

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 21:53:43 GMT

um kinda mad at my journal

it wont show the three pictures i had up
stupid stupid piece of shit
well anyways last night i barely got anysleep because i was so awake from waking up that day at like 2 or 3 and plus me thinking how much i missed the mcq dances
and how i miss my boys there
im really excited for friday that it hurts
and im not even sure i can go
well anyways
go up at like 5 to shower
and school went on
today was course selection day and i got recomended for honors math because acording to everyone im a nerd in math
aand i got recomened for AP global which i heard was a bitch with the homework
YAY for ME
i was so happy at my self that i got a 83 on my big big BIG BIG german test
which brings me D up in that class
its not that im stupid an di dont know german
just that im lazy and i slack off
but im gonna start trying now
because then i will start getting somewhere
got home from school hung out with alona and stuff we sat in the room just talking
about boys of course
and how excited we were
it gets me down
actually
bah
im pathetic i know

got home tried on some clothes for the dance
i think i have an outfit
and i found some thing to wear tonight and thursday night
tonight is some big christmas dinner with my dads work so i have to go to that fun fun...borrowed awesome shoes from alona and her purse because i broke mine and im in love with hers
and thursday is me getting my citizenship yay
ill be a proud citizen
PSHTT

wll thats it for now ♥♥♥♥

wow havnt writtten in so long

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 00:14:33 GMT

wow havnt updated this baby in a while, so here i am. well last night i came home around midnight from spending two days with gabby goff at some wrestling tournament in Bath. i dont know where that place is its like two hours away. me and gabby were surrounded by like 300 guys. i have heard every pick up like in the world
"hi i like puppies and long walks on the beach. Wanna go make out??"
"uhh no"
"alrighty then CALL ME!!"
yeah it was fun we were stuck recording all the matches and we tried doing tabeles but stupid little 12 year olds had to hit on us.
"whats your name??"
"um..yeah... i dont have one"
its how i handle things
gabs refused to sleep at the budget hotel.. i think maybe because it looked like a prison haha
so we got a hotel room in daisey innn
with 400 boys crawling around
it was a one bed
we shared haha
it all worked out

i met the craziest four year in the world haha
me and gabs started to become home sick
kinda pathetic
she was more home sick than me

she missed shane
effing pussy :)

i got home and lindsey and steph were over
i talked to them

and i was so tired i just passed out

in the morning my mom wanted to go to the movies with her and i wasss too tired
and i didnt want to sleep that late
but i wont up and the clock read 2:22
i woke my ass up
ate
did dishes
called alona
i missed her i didnt talk to her for two days
that hurts
then cleaned my room and the bathrooms

and i was lazy the rest of the dayyyy

this probally put you to sleep because it was so boring im sorry tho haha

mcquiad dance in in 5 days
i wish i could go
i talked to my mom about letting me go
it seems like she might
i miss it there
i miss matt
pathetic
i know

but i so badly want to go
:(

wish me luck.

this could be the last time, one more time to fix mistake

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 22:09:38 GMT

So my day went like this

Woke up

Got ready

Left the house

Bus

School

During gym Alex Walters thought it would be funny to hit the tennis ball when I said I would get it right in front of me

So she hits it

SMACK

In my eye I couldn’t open in for um half an hour then I went to the nurse and stuffff

But I’m all good

Because I love Alex : )

Then the rest of the day went on

Yadda yadda

Then after school the basketball meeting

And then I worked out

Then I hung out with my love

Alli Turkowski

We went to the library and ate and stuff

Then Wegmans

And then home

And now Im sitting here listening to coheeeeed bahhh so excited

And eating spaghetti

((Wow look at all the “ANDS” in a row))

Can I please get a life??

Im holding on by letting go

DOMINATION

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 00:24:25 GMT

So um nothing really important or fun happened today during school
So
Blah
Blah
I feel that I looked good today
My hair wasn’t shitty
My makeup was good
And I actually took time to make an outfit the night before
I tried

After school me and Al Herzee stayed after and walked around a bit
Chilled a bit with Timmmmmay Foster and Meg Boyerrr and then LIZZZZ
Then I hung out with max and jay
Then watched some volleyball
Then I went home
Ate tuna and
Then
I SAW EMMA STOLLEBURGER THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!
I have missed her so much I just had to stop by to say hi
I love girl
Then I went to watch some boys volley ball
Penfield dominated…it wasn’t hard Irandiqeote sucked alloottt! ((Wow I can’t spell))
I started to feel bad

Well that’s all for now
Sorry it was so boring

school can kisssss ma butttt

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 22:05:57 GMT

So today started off pretty sucky I must say… woke up like an hour late had 20 minutes to get ready
I think I pulled it off pretty well haha

Fell asleep on the bus on Alona
Got to school, talked to Sarah about all her new awesome clothes don’t really know how she got them haha
Then all classes were fine, had a lab means I got more time with Steph haha
Blah blah school went on
German was a drag
I hate German
Except me and Ricky talk it up because it’s so boring
The day went on
Blah blah
Stayed after thinking I would work out
Had no shorts
So I hung out with Ciaccia and Alli ((I love those girls A LOT!))
Sat around talked, then me and Alli went up to the library
I was picked up
Went to Wegmans
And home
Woooo hooo

Last night me and Alona hung out went outside
First time in like forever and went on the trampoline we got tired after like 5 minutes cuz were fat and then went inside to eat cake, then I went to her house for dinner after eating dinner at my house

Wow I need to work out really badly

chipped pedicures, cold baths i feel like such a princesss

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 17:25:33 GMT

So I’m sitting here listening to some Coheed
Bahhh I’m excited to go see them on the 4th
My moms threatening that if I’m not good I wont be able to go, but there’s no chance in that because I’m going to go no matter what.

I’ve cried so much in the past few days, for so many reasons
Little fights with my mom
Charlie <3
And just being frustrated with myself and others

I’ve also been living on tons of pasta for the past few days
I need myself a good work out
blah

I just got out of a really really long bath
It felt really nice just to lay there in warm water
Soaking my self no one to bother me, it was nice

I’m trying to avoid my homework as much as possible and since my parents aren’t home it’s much easier to get away with haha

My day so far has been such a drag I’m waiting for Alona to get home so then I have something to do, and then Elma is coming over around 6 and so that’ll keep me busy.

I hate how the weather is changing; it’s getting all cold and dreary, makes me depressed
I love my warm weather I love it, and right now I miss it.
I can’t go outside anymore
It kills
Since its getting so freakin cold now I have to start putting my trampoline away
Bah I hate that, what the fuck are me and Alona going to do when were bored out of our fucking minds??

Well now I’m just sitting here watching some Sunday football
Buccaneers vs. Dolphins
Freezing my ass off with my wet, cold, dripping hair.

That’s it for now
Tah tah

i loved you because of the shape of your heart fit perfectly with mine

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:27:29 GMT

PS I love Andrew's hugs
they comfort me
they make me happy

i love the kid

the lines on the map couldnt keep us apart

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 00:39:27 GMT

So many emotions are flowing through me now

Anger ((with so many different people))
Boredom, not just because I have nothing to do I’m bored with my life
Sadness

And so much more

I haven’t written in my live journal in so long but I have so much on my mind I thought I could sort it out here.

Yesterday after school Emily came over and we got ready for Charlie’s Memorial together. The memorial service was so beautiful. The auditorium seats were filled and you could barely find any seats by 6:45 but me and Emily found seat with Gabby, Adrian, and Alli. Within like 5 minutes me and Gabby lost it we were basically sobbing, it took the others a while to cry. Having my friends there made it so much better and just being with all these people that felt the same way made things a bit easier. The auditorium was filled, people standing and sitting in the aisles, then the gym was filled with people sitting shoulder to shoulder on the bleachers both sides of the gym including people on chairs in front of the bleachers…and plus all the people standing in the halls peering through the doors seeing what was going on. I was a mess along with Gabby we couldn’t stop crying.
I had to leave at one part while I was in the bathroom crying…peeing at the same time.
When it all ended everyone was in the hall holding someone and crying it felt good to be comforted and hugged by all the people I knew. I got to see Sam Pitts, he’s home from collage this weekend. I haven’t seen that boy since like august I think and then I saw my boy Jeff Foster which I hadn’t seen since like home coming. Then I saw Sarah and Elma standing out in the hall seeing them made me happy too they comfort me I love the girls
And PS Sarah you did awesome on stage 
Me and Tim Foster were talking about how we still couldn’t process through our heads that he was gone, I kept on thinking that Charlie would come out and be like IM JUST KIDDING IM STILL ALIVE! And everything would be happy and stuff, but that’s not the deal. Me and Emily got home and I made myself spaghetti, Andrew made fun of me at first when I told him haha but it’s all good.
I woke up and stuff and then Emily left and then I did my chores.
Then I got into a random fight with my mom about my grades, but she decided to bring in all this other shit that didn’t even involve school.
I’m really not talking to any of my family now including my sister.
I feel that none of my family appreciates me or loves me; they all just criticize me they never support me or encourage me in anything.
They all complain that I don’t show them love or that I don’t respect them but they treat me like shit so its pretty fucking hard to.
My mom only notices the two C’s I have
The two C’s I busted my fucking ass to get
But she doesn’t notice the A’s or B’s I got
They all just like to attack me at once and I could care less
I just want to get out of my house which is hard cuz my parents don’t let me do anything

Then my situation with boys… nothing new there, Ryans not talking to me

I have my eye on some boys
Just because they look interesting
I actually have never talked to any of them
So there is no chance
And PS
My names Maida I never get boys and there are always problems and I end up getting hurt

Hope is grief’s best music.
RIP Charlie Cote you will never be forgotten, I miss you and so does everyone else.
We have us a new shining star in the sky.